I CRIED. I GOT IT. BUT I CRIED AGAIN

As a young boy, Dad and Mum stopped by to greet a friend who runs a supermarket on one of our trips out of base. They had amazing children’s toys. There was a particular one that I saw that I began to point to that I wanted. My parents warned me but I cried till it was almost becoming an embarrassment.

They could not afford it. Their friends asked them to pay what they had and they would balance the rest. I got want I wanted but that night, I saw the stars.

Just like I did, a lot of us cry because we want to satisfy our own pleasure without first asking for what the will of God for us at the moment is.

Apostle James said: “You’re spoiled children, each wanting your own way.”
James 4:3 MSG

Like the Israelites, we are tired of manna. We want something else. Our prayers are an attempt to arm-twist heaven in giving us our fleshly desires without a knowledge of what God desires for us. Such arm-twisting always ends up in tears.

“God gave them all they desired, and they ate to their fill. But before they had even finished, even with their food still in their mouths, God’s fiery anger arose against them, killing the finest of their mighty men.”
Psalms 78:29‭-‬31 TPT

There are times that we are like Balaam. We already know his will but we keep pressing so we can get our way. It always ends up in dire consequences. It is divination. It involves manipulation.

In addition to those slain in battle, the Israelites had put to the sword Balaam son of Beor, who practiced divination.
Joshua 13:22 NIV

And God them warned us not to go the way of Balaam. Do not try to arm-twist God to do your own pleasure. There is a gain in aligning to God’s will. True intercession is praying out the will of the Father!

Abandoning the straight road [that is, the right way to live], they have gone astray; they have followed the way of Balaam the son of Beor, who loved the reward of wickedness; but he was rebuked for his own transgression: a mute donkey spoke with a man’s voice and restrained the prophet’s madness.
2 Peter 2:15‭-‬16 AMP

When donkeys begin to speak, you better pause and check whether you have not deviated from the divine plan. When the unusual is happening, go back to the drawing board, you may have missed the turning.

What are you crying for?