I WANTED TO PICK HER HEARTBEAT
It was our first few weeks into marriage. I cannot particularly remember what led to the misunderstanding (Not sure if there was any in the first place). All I remember was my lovely wife went into the guest room and locked the door from behind- she did not want me close at all.
Having no other choice, I picked up a duvet and laid it at the closed door. I laid there. A while later, when she opened the door and met me there, she was shocked. She asked, “What are you doing there?”.
I said to her, “No matter what, I want to stay close enough to pick your heartbeat”. It melted her heart. We spoke. We resolved.
Intimacy is tested when feelings have expired. Feelings are not and will never be the true test of intimacy. The things you do and the way you respond when you do not feel like is a great test of intimacy.
There will be days you would not feel like praying or studying the Word or walking in love but you know that these are commitments that are beyond feelings.
Paul told us that we will certainly face these moments. He said to us that: “For what our human nature wants is opposed to what the Spirit wants, and what the Spirit wants is opposed to what our human nature wants. These two are enemies, and this means that you cannot do what you want to do.”
Galatians 5:17 GNT
The things you do when your flesh wants to take the lead is your test of growth in the things of the Spirit. If you follow the Spirit, you walk into a new season in maturity but if you follow the flesh, you have enrolled in the class of carnality.
When carnality is your teacher, you will fail exams set by the Spirit. But when the Spirit of the Lord is your trainer, you show carnality that you learn from, listen to and follow the best! Carnality loses its grip on you.
Intimacy with God is not grown by feelings; it is cultivated by following the Spirit of God.
May this season bring you into deeper intimacy with God!